Dancing Baby

I LOVE feeling my baby move inside of me.  I know by the end of pregnancy I could be very tired of it if this one is anything like Jordan, who would really get to wiggling as soon as I'd lay down for bed at night and who would catch the hiccups what felt like at least twice a day but for the time being I am loving every second of it.  To be quite honest, after having a miscarriage in March (this may come as a big surprise to many of you as we only shared with very few close friends and relatives) I really faced major ups and downs.  I never realized the roller coaster ride that I would face after a miscarriage.  I'd always felt for women before who had lost a baby but never totally grasped the pain they were experiencing until I went through it myself and man was it a struggle.  Even after getting pregnant two months later, I still dealt with the pain and suffering.  I had a hard time getting excited over this baby, plus I wouldn't allow myself to get excited the times that I wanted to until I had reached the second trimester.  But even after being three months into pregnancy I still struggled with my emotions because I had told myself for so long NOT to get excited just in case we lost this one too that it was very difficult to reverse those feelings.  But it seemed as though all those feelings were wiped away once I felt my baby move.  It all finally felt real and I can finally get to know my baby by learning this little one's movements and actions.  I've been feeling the baby for about a month now and each week the movements get stronger and stronger as my little one grows and I'm loving this baby more and more with each movement.  I will never forget the baby that we lost and I will grieve as the due date comes and goes next month but God has His hand on everything that touches our lives and He has provided us with two wonderful blessings of children that we will celebrate our entire lives with.  This Wednesday we get to see our new little one during it's second photo session!  I am so excited to see the little one during our ultrasound.  I'll be sharing pictures hopefully Wednesday afternoon and if we can I'll also post the video of the ultrasound too.